[P] fresh air clears the mind

[Aaron Tayllore]

*shakes his head*

I'm human Holly, unlike you, the girl who everyone loves who never makes mistakes and never does anything stupid out of fear, like I did. Sorry I'm not perfect but I guess thats just the way it is. As for me being selfish, I guess so if you think it's selfish to have wanted you to be mine. I guess it was too much to ask for you to be cool with me getting the smallest bit crazy and jumping to conclusions once, and only because I loved you. I'm sorry I was the only person who screwed up this relationship and I'm sorry everything was my fault. But I guess there's nothing I can do about it now.

[Holly Palmers]

*pretending to have completely missed the sarcasm to hide that fact that she feels awfully hurt*

I'm glad that you've straightened that out. See, we can all learn things from just talking our problems out.

[Aaron Tayllore]

*between glancing around looking for something to hang her with he looks at her with a grin*

Better get another policy Holly because your not being honest to yourself. Wow, what a record. This policy lasted over four minutes!

*laughs* I wish you could just let your guard down for that long and tell me what you actually think. Sebastian's right, your not you around me!

[Holly Palmers]

*trying to find words as his become more oppressive*

Well if Sebastian and you are such good bedfellows have him tell you, because I could have sworn I told what you want to hear so much to him.

*opens her book again, hoping that it has magical turned into a guide on "how to hold on to the ones you love when a fool could see the gulf between you"*

[Aaron Tayllore]

*has the sudden urge to hug her but instead looks at her like she's insane*

What are you talking about? *forces himself not to grin in fear for his life*

*feels like half his body is going one way and the other half is going the other right way*

[Holly Palmers]

*sighs*

I am never going to tell anyway what is wrong with them. I wish people would stop asking. It must be a guy thing, to wan to know their flaws.

[Aaron Tayllore]

Okay..

*wow, thanks that clears it up*

So what do you want me to do now? Honestly.

[Holly Palmers]

*closes the book*

Forgive me.

*looks down at her hands*

For what I have done.

*looks up at him*

I have broken my promise.

[Aaron Tayllore]

*looks at her alarmed for a second and then his fave softens into a smile*

Before I ask what promise, forgive me for being so paranoid, and know that i acted how i did because I love you, and know that i forgive you.

[Holly Palmers]

*thanks, tell me how much you forgive me before I have told you what I've done--guilt trip for one, coming right up*

Aaron, I signed up. Like your sister, I did it.

[Aaron Tayllore]

*Entire world bursts into flames of roaring ripping misery*

Um, WHY? And what exactly should my response to this be because I have no idea what to do?

*pauses*

Did you do it because you wanted to or because you felt like you had to?

[Aaron Tayllore]

Do you regret it?

[Holly Palmers]

Thanks, Aaron, questions are exactly what I was looking for.

No, I did it because it is a valid life choice for a Slytherin. Sebastian said that if he joined he could protect me, so if I join I can protect you and my parents.

*has gone over that many times in her head*

I do not regret anything.

[Aaron Tayllore]

Will they want to protect me? The Ravenclaw who knows about the order and...

*freezes*

*thinks: That's how Valley did it. That's how she got in. Trading secrets*

*makes one of those life changing yet amusingly hypocritical decisions*

Okay, I'm in. It sounds smart. Logical.

*thinks: safe*

*kisses her, and then wants to strangle himself for acting so instintively*

[Holly Palmers]

*feels a lot better that the Ravenclaw called her decision logical*

*smiles when he kisses her*

It's going to be good. I know it.