I'm Too Bloody Old For Quidditch

[Katie Bell]

* and curses at herself, no he never said who his memory self was talking to, she just assumed he thought it was her. Katie glances between the wizard and the door, studying her options.*

_{Way to bloody well go, Bell. Why don't you just go ahead and check yourself into the psych ward? They might even let you stay in Lockhart's old room, that smarmy git.}

*Bites her bottom lip, knowing she has a habit of speaking before she thinks, especially around Greyson. She quirks one eyebrow, crossing her arms as she constantly shifts her weight from one foot to the other. If that wasn't an explosive reaction, then what is? His comment about the Healers makes her laugh. She remembers when she was here, after being cursed in her 7th year, and knows he's going to learn the hard way that Healers never show up when you want them to, only when you never want to see them.*

You...should probably go back to sleep? You're, er, hurt...and, you need your rest.

*Makes a face at the situation in general, not liking it one bit. The blood is still pumping through her veins in a rush, and her heart's beating so loudly she wonders if he can hear it.*

Alright, alright, I'll stay for just a few more minutes. Well, actually, I...

*Sighs, and walks over to the chair anyways. As she sits back down, she smiles, so weakly that it's almost obvious she's forcing it. Shrugs, looking at the bed and not at him.*

Dunno what you're wanting to talk about though.

[Greyson Ollivander]

*Barely offers a shrug, he couldn't care less what they talk about, he just wants her here, he isn't sure he could sit here alone. Sighing softly now that she sat down, and he can see she's not going anywhere in the immediate future, he smiles...a little bit, it hurts to do that right now.*

I don't care...we can talk about...our families?

*Eyes widen a bit, he's completely forgotten about his, does he have one?*

Umm...I assume I have one right? That's something you can answer?

*Looks to her hopefully, wishing she would look at him.*

[Katie Bell]

*Can't stop the wide grin as he asks about family. Each time they visited his parents' house, she had more than a bit of fun. She nods, still looking everywhere but him.*

Oh yeah, you have a family.

*Wrinkles her nose at the thought of her own, because lately they haven't been getting along so well. Katie didn't even bother telling them about Greyson, so she doesn't feel like mentioning them.*

I love 'em to bits. So do you- your mum and dad, she loves me by the way-

*Smiles crookedly, remembering him fussing that his own mother always took her side instead of her son's.*

-then you have Leighton and Daisy. Leighton's so much like you that it's a tad scary, but Daisy's such a sweetheart, really. Everytime we go, there's at least one game of Quidditch!

*Laughs softly, not realizing she forgot to distance herself from the situation, and make them sound more like friends.*

[Greyson Ollivander]

*Uncontrollably his smile widens as he listens about his family, and the fact that it sounds like Katie knows his family quite well sends up a red flag. His brow crinkles up in confusion.*

If we're only friends...why does it seem...like there's something...more? You say my mother loves you, and believe me when I say I can see why, but how close of a friendship do we have?

*Lifts a hand to his forehead, rubbing a bit, weariness beginning to take hold, and he fights against it. Right now he has important matters at hand, and he needs to get to the bottom of them straight away.*

*The mention of Quidditch triggers another memory, and he can see his entire family laughing along with him and Katie at the dinner table. In the memory he senses a deep closeness between him and the witch, and he can see how fondly everyone in his family looks at her.*

Katie, I can't help feeling as if there's more there. Something tells me that I fancy you...quite a bit at that too...but-

*Looks away from her, frustrated she won't look at him, and he can't get a good read on her expressions. Sighing heavily he finishes his statement.*

-what's bothering me is that you...seem...seem to be hiding something.

*Knows he can't remember everything right now, but it would also be nice if Katie would open up a bit more, shine some more light on his questions.

[Katie Bell]

*Squeezes her eyes shut at the tone of his voice, pressing her nails into her skin tightly. This is the last thing she wanted- well, not really, but one of the last- because she feels her defenses slowly crumbling into thin air. With a sudden surge of energy, Katie jumps up from the chair, and turns away from him, crossing her arms.*

I- it's...Gods...it's my fault, alright?!

*Flings both arms out to her sides, voice cracking. She doesn't bother to wipe the tears that start slowly running down her cheeks because he's already seen them, and she doesn't plan on turning around any time soon.*

Yeah, Greyson, we're friends. We're the kind of friends who are always there for each other no matter what, until one of us royally screws it up.

*Takes a deep breath, running her hands through her hair. There's only been a few occasions where Katie's actually broken down, and quite honestly she doesn't know what to do.*

I'm hiding something from you, you could say that. Or we can agree that whatever I know you don't know is something you'd rather not remember anyways. Trust me, please?

*Shakes her head, sobbing once before she catches herself, and bites her lip once more. If she tells him what really happened, she's convinced that his first reaction will be to toss her out of the room, out of England, and out of his life.*

[Greyson Ollivander]

at her outburst, and left staring at her back, asking himself why all the tears, why is she so upset? The need to comfort the witch overwhelms the injured wizard once again, and with a load of effort he manages to pull himself up into a sitting position, taking a moment to allow the dizziness to dissipate.*

What do yo-

*Attempted to ask what's she talking about, but shuts his mouth shut as she continues on, and listens carefully. As quickly as he can he hops off the bed, and stands upward, gritting his teeth through the pain, and near falling over from the rush of blood to his head. He shakes off the dizziness, and wobbles his way over the short distance that separates Katie from him. Inches from her, he lowers his head so he doesn't have to speak loudly, his lips brush the top of her head as he speaks, he's so close he can feel the warmth from her body radiating toward him.*

*Pleads*

Katiebell...I need to know everything you can tell me. Don't you understand that hiding things won't stop me from finding out my past, it will just delay me, and possibly hurt any progress that I may or may not have while recovering from my- my accident.

*Wincing he gently place a hand on each shoulder, wishing she would look at him dammit. Now that he has seen her gorgeous face, he wishes she wouldn't hide it any longer.*

I don't care what's happened, I just need to know...so badly...and...and y- you're my...my key.

[Katie Bell]

*Is too wrapped up in thinking of all the ways she's messed this up, all the ways she's ruined the best thing in her life. All she wanted to do was keep him safe, but as usual, nothing she plans ever works out if it involves Greyson. She doesn't hear him stand, or walk over, so his whisper makes her twitch in surprise. His words, what he's asking, is the last thing she can take. Squeezing her eyes shut, she sucks in a deep breath and slowly begins to tell what's happened, and what he doesn't remember about them.*

*Cringes away from him slightly, because she'd rather be the one to leave on her own than have him shove her away. Her voice is low, and it's obvious in her tone that she really wishes he didn't have so much control over her.*

W- we met in...in Diagon; I was g- going nowhere and I don't th- think you were either. You almost knocked me over, I wasn't paying attention, and we went t- to the Leaky.

*Grins softly.*

You carried me the whole way, b- because I said you w- weren't strong enough...that's when you told me about J- J- J-

*Narrows her eyes, forcing herself to finally say the Death Eater's name through her clenched teeth.*

-Jolie. Your girlfriend. I dunno how it h- happened, but we ended up going back to your flat, and...

* and looks down at the floor.*

When I woke up, I- I couldn't believe what I'd done, and I left...that's w- what happened with- with the bell, and the shop...you came and s- said I was different from the others, the warm sun on your face. Things went on, and I ended moving in with you, but then I met J- Jolie. I didn't know she was the witch y- you were talking about, and we too stopped by the Leaky 'till you walked in and, oh she wasn't too chuffed about that...

*Trails off, remembering the night she met Jolie, then the night the Veela attacked her in Diagon and left her to die. Everything leads back to either the Leaky, Diagon or St. Mungo's, and Katie can't decide if she blames Jolie for it all, or if she blames herself. Because, if Katie hadn't have went back to Greyson's flat when they first met, they probably wouldn't be in this situation at all.*

[Greyson Ollivander]

*He listens, grimacing every now and again from the pain nothing more. When she recites all that has happened between them, such as the bell, he can see clear visions of the memory, but they fade fast.*

*Only offering a nod here and there, trying to make sense of the story, and quite happy to hear that she spent the night, and basically from how it sounds, they haven't left each other alone since. The mention of Jolie though brings back another memory, one that causes him more pain than he thought he could handle, and he nearly sinks to the floor. There are words echoing through his memory, words he knows he never wanted to hear.*

*Whispers*

You're not taking me anywhere, Greyson- I'm leaving. I am leaving, because I don't want you to get hurt.

*Suddenly the room feels as though it's spinning, and the all of the air has been sucked out of his body, the room, hell the entire planet, and he is left gasping. His eyes widen as he looks to Katie, unable to speak for fear he might bite his tongue clear off he's shaking so bad. Everything he couldn't remember comes flooding back into his thoughts, he can see it all, and most importantly feel the pain he felt the moment Katie told him she was leaving. He barely lived through it the first time, now he's reliving it again.*

*Staggers backward, toward the bed, the pain growing unbearable, and he collapses, mumbling nonsensical madness.*

[Katie Bell]

*Is unable to hold back, and sobs, hearing him repeat the words she told him the night she left. The vision of him on his knees, crying into his hands is crystal clear in her mind, and she knows that this entire situation is her fault. If it weren't for her, Jolie never would have done anything, and Greyson would probably be happier anyways. Katie wraps her arms around herself, and whispers to him as he backs away from her.*

I- I knew you'd- you'd be better off not remembering...

*Hears a crash, thinking he's gone and broken something with how furious he must be at her. She turns around to face him, to tell him that she knows it wouldn't make any difference but she's sorry, because she did what she did trying to protect him. Her eyes widen and before she realizes what she's doing, Katie rushes over to kneel beside the wizard, heart racing as she mentally curses herself for hurting him even more.*

G- Greyson? No, shh, listen to me...

*Whispers, tears drying on her cheeks as she reaches out and gently takes his face in her hands.*

Merlin, oh Godric knows I- I never wanted it to be like this. T- tell me, just tell me to leave, and I'll go; tell me that you never want to see me again and I'll listen.

*Is basically placing all of who she is in the wizard's hands, honestly ready to do whatever he tells her to, without question.*

I don't...I can't hurt you anymore.

[Greyson Ollivander]

*Everything can be seen clearly now in his memory, and he tries to push them away with each wave of fresh pain. Even hurting as badly as he his both physically and mentally, Greyson knows she's wrong, he wouldn't have been better off without knowing the truth. If he hadn't remembered then he would have never known how to truly love someone.*

*The soft warmth of her hands quiets his gasping sobs some, though the tears continue to flow. He might be overreacting a bit, but the pain from the memory of her leaving him is so fresh, so raw, he cannot help but react any other way. Katie is the love his life, for all eternity, there is no other reaction to reliving the memory of her leaving.*

*Blinks at her words, only actually hearing one. Her voice wraps around the word,"Leave", and he winces, a fresh wave of agony fills his chest, and he stiffens between her palms. Dropping his tear filled eyes, he shakes his head, and stammers out.*

D- Don't use th- that wo-word.

*Hiccups, and bites his lip. The last thing he wants right now is for her to leave. She's left before, and he is barely hanging on because of the memory. It's certain that if she leaves him again he won't live through that, once was bad enough.*

Y- You can only hurt me by using th-that word.

[Katie Bell]

*Winces, not understanding how he'd want her to stay, considering everything she's done to him. The sight of the strong wizard crying is tearing her apart, and she moves closer to him.*

I'll never hurt you again, love, I promise.

*Isn't really sure which word he meant, but knows she'll never say that sentence to him ever again. She's learned the hard way that, in the end, she simply can't function without Greyson in her life. It's not possible, but she knows she doesn't deserve him anyways.*

*Katie leans forward, brushing her lips across his forehead, not knowing how much physical pain he's in and not wanting to make it worse.*

I- I'm so sorry, Greyson...I'm so, so, so sorry.

*Whispers*

_{I love you, I d- don't deserve this...}

[Greyson Ollivander]

*Eyes snap upward to her face the moment he hears her call him "love", and the tears change into tears of happiness, though the pain of her leaving him still lingers. The sound of her voice saying words of endearment to him is something he hasn't heard in such a long time, he would have fallen over if he wasn't already on the floor.*

*Blinking at her, his heart sings as she brushes her lips over his forehead, and surprisingly that part of him doesn't hurt so much.*

I love you, Katie. I always will.

*Large hands reach for her, grasping at her robes, and he clings to her. He needs her close, though he's only remembered how much he needs her. Every day without her has been torture.*

I knew there was something between us. The love I have for you wouldn't allow me to forget, thank you, Katiebell. Thank you...for...coming back.

[Katie Bell]

I'll always love you too...

*Is pulled closer to him, eyes shutting as she smiles with relief. Sure, she would've left if he told her to, but there's no telling how long she would've made it without him. At his words, she ever so gently wraps her arms around him, ready to pull back if it hurts him.*

I'm here, I'll always be...I missed you too much, now you'll never be rid of me.

*Opens her eyes, turning her head to whisper in his ear.*

Thank you for letting me come back, love. You h- have no idea, how much that m- means to me.

[Greyson Ollivander]

*Is willing to go through any pain to have Katie's arms wrapped around him. Focusing everything on the witch in his arms, he sucks up the pain, and moves his arms around her tiny waist, squeezing as hard as he can manage.*

Don't ever, ever leave again.

*Pulls away from her, only inches, and locks his eyes onto her face. The reason she left in the first place floats to the front of his thoughts, and he continues with a soft, yet stern tone.*

I don't care if You-Know-Who himself is after you, me, us, don't ever leave again. I can't face life without y- you...

[Katie Bell]

*Makes a face at his request, knowing she'd do anything to keep him safe, whether he wanted it or not. Katie's a stubborn witch, and if she thinks doing something will help save the ones she loves, then she'll damn well do it. She's caught in his eyes as she whispers back.*

I won't promise to anything if it puts you at risk.

*Shakes her head, sighing. Everything feels so much better, now that she's finally back in his arms without worrying about having to leave. Smiling crookedly, she adds.*

Besides, it's not like I could stay away for too long...I- I'm nothing without you.