[P] Making himself nothing again [Holly]

[Aaron Tayllore]

*walks down the stairs and down to the front of the dungeon door*

*waits for Holly so he can do what he should've done a long time ago*

*can't get the visual out of his head of her kissing Sebastian, mere hours after she was moaning on like a little child about how annoying he was.*

*She thought he was weak, he had made it seem that way, saying he was "nothing" without her. Better be nothing without her than pathetic and miserable with her. So what if he loved her? She was in Slytheri. She could love as many people as she wanted and it would never been good enough.*

[Holly Palmers]

*her footsteps echo as she makes her way down to the dungeons*

*peers around the stone column into the gloom*

Aaron? *she calls out*

[Aaron Tayllore]

*walks up to her*

Hey Holly. *gives her a little peck on the cheek, not quite looking at her*

[Holly Palmers]

*holds onto his hand as he tries to pull away*

What are you doing down her, it's beautiful outside.

[Aaron Tayllore]

*shrugs, still not looking at her*

I... I wanted... I just wanted to talk to you...*looks away, still trying not to catch her gaze*

[Holly Palmers]

*is disconcerted by the way he keeps looking*

Talk about what?

[Aaron Tayllore]

*looks straight at her for the first time*

*tries not to sound angry but has a tiny feeling he failed*

I saw you and Sebastian kissing. I just came to tell you that it's over.

[Holly Palmers]

*eyes go wide*

What? You saw that-but it's not what you think, I mean...

*looses the spirit to defend herself*

How could you have so little faith all the sudden?

*drops his hand*

[Aaron Tayllore]

*looks at her incredulously*

Holly, I'm not sticking around just so you can complain and beg everytime you make a mistake. I haven't done anything. All I've done is love you. You may love me, I don't know, but you want more than that.

*takes a deep breath and says quietly*

You'll never share real love until you love yourself. You like Sebastian too, and a right fool you've made out of me, every time you see me talking about how annoying and obnoxious he is...

[Holly Palmers]

I never complained or begged before I met you because I never had anyone who'd listen to before!

*angry that she feels lectured to*

Obviously you weren't listening because I think it's pretty obvious that I do not like Sebastian and that you do a ripe job yourself making yourself look a fool...

[Aaron Tayllore]

*sighs*

I didn't come here to fight. I don't want to make you angry or sad or anything. Don't say you have zero feelings for Sebastian because you'll only be lying to yourself. Like I said, I love you, but I dont want to be one of the many you love. It may be selfish, but it's true.

[Holly Palmers]

*feels powerless, and surprisingly calm, as if this is the right thing to do*

I don't think you're being fair, to yourself, especially not to me. But I also don't think this-us-are as simple as what is fair and what is not.

But if you love me, how will you go on without me?

[Aaron Tayllore]

*also calm*

How am I being unfair to you? I see you kissing someone else. Everytime your with him it's obvious you like him. You make excuses for yourself. You try and turn everything on me. You can't accept that it's your fault ever. You are unfair to me. You string me along while you like other people. I dont work that way. You want this relationship to work, fine. Go for it. But it's you that needs to fix things, not me. Sebastian likes you. And if you are ever with him in the future, you'll end up just like me. Maybe that's the only way you'll see what you've done and how it's hurt me. As for how I will survive? I'll figure it out, but I'm not going to make myself miserable just for you to be happy and get everything you want, forever and ever. You dont have that much control over me.

[Holly Palmers]

*is scared at how powerfully is words escape him*

Am I so narrow that I cannot love you but value his character, his ambition? I apologize then, for that's true. But Sebastian is not going to catch me as you let me fall, we are both ending up alone--how has that made anything better?

Aaron, you're not giving me much hope to go on that Sebastian's way of love is not the better way to love.

[Aaron Tayllore]

Oh please Holly you're already alone. Sebastian's way of loving may be "better" sounding to you now, but it's not me. That's not how I am. Would you like it if I had four other girls to be with along with you? At first, having you as my girlfriend made me feel special, lucky, but when I see you with Sebastian, it's like you dont even care. As long as you have someone to cuddle up with, to take care of you, to make you happy, you dont have any other bother in the world.